It has been a long time since I even logged into this thing.. I can’t believe it’s still up and running. I think the last time I wrote anything was back in March. My how time does fly, especially when living with a two-year old.
I wanted to come on here and write down my thoughts on yesterday’s tragic events that unfolded in Newton, Connecticut. I think that if this had happened say, two and half , three years ago, I’m not sure it would not have the same profound affect it has on me today.
Yesterday, I had such a great day with Ryder. We got up, took our dog to the vet (that is a different story), did some shopping, went on a lunch date and then to our favorite place, Starbucks! Yes, my child loves going to Starbucks, no, he does not have coffee. But we sit there and people watch. He drinks his water, and I drink my much-needed coffee. It’s our thing. We then came home, and the first thing I did was turn on the television. I was stunned. When I tell you that I literally fell to my knees that is not an exaggeration. Ryder totally looked at me like I was crazy and I just grabbed him and held him tight.
My heart aches for the parents. For teachers and staff, for the friends and family and especially for the children. How can innocent lives be taken so brutally? I can only imagine the anxiety of un-answered questions and the overwhelming grief that these moms and dads must be feeling. My heart aches for them as they had to go home that night, to their homes that probably felt so empty and instead of rocking their babes to sleep, their just rocking……. I want so badly for all those families hurting right now to know that their children are in Heaven, and they’re safe, and their Heavenly Father is with them. I hope they feel the Lord’s comfort and all the prayers that are being sent to them.
This world is becoming such a scary place with each passing day…. I want so badly to protect our son from the evil. I just look at him and think to myself, how precious and innocent he is. How do I protect him without putting him in a bubble?
I find this quote comforting…
“Train a child in the way he should go,
and when he is old he will not turn from it.”
I hope that each new day I have with our son, I can teach him right from wrong. And that even during the tough times, the whiney days and even those long nights, I remember to keep in my mind and close to my heart what a gift each day we have together truly is.